the dumbing down of love.

have you ever stopped and realized that the person you believe you were meant to be with, is the person that another also believes they love?
have you ever realized that they may feel the same for the other person and will leave you stranded?
maybe they don't like the way you look or they don't find your jokes funny. maybe they think you come from different worlds or you want different things in life. or maybe, it is because you have never told them how you feel.
we are all going to die but whether we truly live before this happens is purely up to us. to lie on your death bed with the regret of not letting others know how you feel about them has got to be the worst thing. so why do we love and not tell? in all honesty, it is because we care so deeply that we are scared of showing weakness and getting pushed away and as we all know, being pushed away feels a hell lot worse than not telling the person because by keeping your love secret, you can still live in hope that something may eventuate.

i am scared for two reasons.
i love a guy who i have known for a long time. he can see right through all of my acts which everybody including my family are able to fall for. i am scared of being rejected, but more so because i am scared that him and my sister will not have the possible future in which they could have. they don't go out, but are practically destined too. i may love him, but i love my sister more. i would rather love in silent than be rejected by two people that i care about deeply.